Screaming Inside To Be Set Free!

Lately, I’ve been so filled with expectation and urgency.  I’ve been feeling caged and anxious to be set free.  I feel as though I’m releasing all of the thoughts and beliefs that I’ve carried throughout the years that have caused me to accept less than what i deserve.  The beliefs that kept me bound by guilt, shame, and regret.  The enemy of my mind has deceived me into thinking that I can’t have it all, whatever it all may be, and that I don’t have control over certain areas of my life–that I have to work harder as opposed to smarter to live abundantly and peacefully.

I AM SO DONE! I am done tying to please man. I am done living a life without balance. I deserve to be free to be a mommy, to be free to take care of my body, to be free to provide for my children, to be free to live in spiritual and financial abundance and overflow.  I no longer want to fear the wrath, or judgment of man.  Why should I? I serve the God who created man.  I want to be free.  I don’t want a day job that takes away from my peace, or my ability to energetically and consistently pursue those things that bring joy and purpose to my life.  I want a job that doesn’t wear me out mentally, physically, and emotionally.  I want a career that allows me to preserve enough mental, emotional, and physical strength and energy to devote to my children when I get home at night.

I want to be an effective mother. I want to have the energy to help my children with homework and projects, and to read bedtime stories and have prayer each night before tucking them in.

I want to effortlessly be able to purchase them a new pair of shoes when they need it–as opposed to having to check my bank account to see if I can.

I wish I could devote two hours a day to exercising, and at least another two hours to meditation, study, and prayer.

I would love to work out, eat well, and make a living doing what I love–staying fit, showing it off, and writing.

i want a job that allows me the freedom to pursue my dreams and goals outside of work–maybe even one that coincides with and complements what I truly want to do.

I want to be a business owner. I don’t want to work for anyone for the rest of my life.

I want to write books, articles, blogs.  I want to invest in property.

I want to be able to give freely!

I want financial and spiritual freedom!

Even as I write this now, I feel a hint of guilt.  I’m having thoughts like, “You’re blessed. Don’t complain.” Well, I am blessed. I am very blessed. God has brought me from and through many dark places.  However, He has justified me and made it okay for me to think big, to desire and expect greater and more.  He has made it okay for me to desire prosperity and freedom.  In fact, he promises it to me in his word.

If people can live this life in abundance and freedom, how much more should believers and followers of Christ be able to?

I am just waiting in humble and grateful expectation of change, breakthrough, overflow, and freedom! In Jesus’ name, it is my time to walk in the freedom that Christ intended for me to walk in–without shame or fear.  I am ready to honorably and fearlessly walk into the Purpose Filled, abundant life God intended for me.

I am free! My mind and my Spirit Man are free. Now, I am waiting in expectation for the evidence of my freedom to manifest in this natural world.

Are you too screaming and about to burst at the seams into your freedom? I’d love to hear your thoughts. Leave a comment.

Mark 11:23-24 “Truly I tell you, if anyone says to this mountain, ‘Go, throw yourself into the sea,’ and does not doubt in their heart but believes that what they say will happen, it will be done for them.  Therefore, I tell you, whatever you ask for in prayer, believe that you have received it, and it will be yours.”

2 Corinthians 9:8, 11 “And God is able to bless you abundantly, so that in all things at all times, having all that you need, you will abound in every good work…Now he who supplies seed to the sower and bread for food will also supply and increase your store of seed and will enlarge the harvest of your righteousness.  You will be enriched in every way so that you can be generous on every occasion, and through us your generosity will result in thanksgiving to God.”

Philippians 4:23 “But my God shall supply all your need according to his riches in glory by Christ Jesus.”

Deuteronomy 8:7-9 “For the lord your God is bringing you into a good land–a land with brooks, steams, and deep springs gushing out into the valleys and hills; a land with wheat and barley, vines and fig trees, pomegranates, olive oil and honey; a land where bread will not be scarce and you will lack nothing; a land where the rocks are iron and you can dig copper out of the hills.”

1 Chronicles 4: 10 “Jabez cried out to the God of Israel, ‘Oh, that you would bless me and enlarge my territory! Let your hand be with me, and keep me from harm so that i will be free from pain.’ And God granted his request.”

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