I feel like I’m in a rat race. I feel that I’m in a whirlwind of chaos and confusion, while making little to no progress. How is it that I purpose to help others to seek out and walk in their purpose, and to live a life of fullness and peace, yet I seem to struggle to do the same? I desire for my life to be a demonstration of who I am in Christ. I want to be financially free to not only meet the basic needs of my daughters and I, but to also live comfortably and to give freely and abundantly. I want to have the time to commune with and get into the Holy presence of God on a daily basis–seeking wisdom, guidance, instruction, spiritual strength, power, and boldness! I want to be free to focus on nurturing my goals and dreams–doing the things that make my heart skip a beat. I want to run, and strength train, and write, and mentor others. I want to spend time praying for those that God will send for me to minister to. I want to travel. I want to expose my parents, siblings, and even extended family members to experiences they never even dreamed of.
I am created in the image of God. I shall have what I want and decree. I am free. I am supposed to live in abundance. I am supposed to set others free. My life should reflect the glory, faithfulness and power of God. Soon, I will no longer be trapped in the busyness of life. It almost seems like all that’s going on (at this one time) is a ploy to keep me distracted and held up from my destiny calling. But I’m breaking out. Mentally, physically, spiritually, I am breaking out!
How can people live this way and feel normal. How can they constantly be on the go and not seek more peace and tranquility? How can people operate in continuous chaos and not long for the presence of God? I know that I am not fully operating in my purpose right now, because life seems too hectic. If all that I was doing was God orchestrated, I would feel more peace, more excitement, more fulfillment. I wouldn’t feel like I was constantly trying to keep up…
I believe that when God gave me children, He gave them to me willing to orchestrate a life that would allow me to give them my all–not compromise my time with and level of influence on them. He desires for me to have the time, energy, and wisdom to teach them about Him and to live a life that’s indicative of who God has called us to be. He wants me to have the time to pray with them nightly, teach them about His word, and have the patience to answer every question that comes from them about God. He wants me to be a patient mother, a loving mother, a relaxed and healthy mother. He desires to give me wisdom as a mother, and for my mind to be quiet and open enough to receive spiritual downloads from Him.
I believe that the desires of my heart and the discomfort that I feel comes from God. I believe that the desire for more time in His presence comes from him. The desire to have more and to be able to give more comes from Him. The desire to live a life that inspires others to believe in Christ, and to dream bigger comes from Him.The desire to live in peace and harmony in every aspect of my life comes from God.
From childhood, I have experienced much too long, chaos, trial after trial, confusion, fear, helplessness, disappointment, heartbreak, instability, lack, pressure, and stress. Now is my time to break free into living consistently in the opposite. I am living in order, victory, clarity, courage and boldness, power, satisfaction, love, stability, abundance, and peace!
A life of fullness, peace, tranquility, Godly influence, and joy is possible! I can have this life, and I want this life. I am asking God for this life, and I will have it.
Philippians 2:13 “For it is [not your strength, but it is] God who is effectively at work in you, both to will and to work, [that is, strengthening, energizing, and creating in you the longing and the ability to fulfill your purpose] for His good pleasure.” -AMP
John 14: 12 “Very truly I tell you, whoever believes in me will do the works I have been doing, and they will do even greater things than theses, because I am going to the Father. And I will do whatever you ask in my name, so that the Father may be glorified in the Son. You may ask me for anything in my name, and i will do it.” -NIV
Ephesians 3:20 “Now to him who is able to do immeasurably more than all we ask or imagine, according to his power that is at work within us,” -NIV
2 Timothy 1:7 “For God has not given us a spirit of fear, but of power, and of love and of a sound mind.” -NKJV